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I’ve never shared here. The sun is my gift every morning. Here is my writing…

The Rise

Ribbon of red across the dawn, like God’s smile of good morning.

You remind me that I am loved.

You prove there is a fresh start I can enjoy each day,

If only I recognize it.

Ribbon of red across the dawn does not seem like a sailor’s warning.

More so the joyful dance of clouds

And the joyful songs of birds who

Delight in your sight

As much as I do.

I lost my son in Afghanistan 15 years ago. He was 25. Every morning I imagine him enjoying the sunrise with me from his vantage point. Peace to all

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This silently thunderous piece, Suleika, I feel I’m reading the meteorology of your soul on the one hand, and a dispatch from the heart’s war front, on the other. Letting the weather be your co-conspirator in survival can be beautifully subversive. It reminds me of how Virginia Woolf once described moments of being, those rare flickers when life aligns, just for a second, and something invisible yet essential breaks through the fog. You’ve captured that here, with the sky as your mirror and Calvin’s letter as your sunburst.

I love your ritual with the dogs. It might be seen as routine, but for me it’s a form of résistance. A bit like tending to a small garden in a war zone, not out of naïveté but out of defiance. As if to say, yes, I’ll still meet the morning, still greet the world, even if it comes cloaked in mist.

“Sharing our stories requires us to believe that we won’t be rejected for them” feels like the quiet thesis of everything good. What you describe reminds me more of palimpsests, the ancient manuscripts that were written over, their original texts scraped away, only to resurface centuries later under ultraviolet light. The beauty of a palimpsest is not in its clarity but in its layering, the ghost of the old text still breathing beneath the new. That’s how your work with Calvin feels. That’s how you feel in this piece. The weather, the chemo, the creative drought…. they are sedimentary layers. Each one leaves a trace. And somehow, even in your blankness, something essential is speaking.

There’s also something powerful for me in how you’ve mirrored his isolation with your own, his cell, your sickbed, both permeable to love in surprising ways. Perhaps the greatest fiction of our time is that we must be “productive” to be radiant. Yet here you are, proving the opposite: that presence, attention, and open-heartedness, especially in difficulty, can be the brightest sun of all.

May it continue to shine exceptionally bright upon you, Suleika!

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