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Tamara's avatar

What you describe is the blueprint for how modern ritual might look in a world aching for connection yet addicted to performance. The draw-a-giraffe-with-your-eyes-closed moment is so much more than a charming icebreaker…. It is a gentle disarmament of ego, an invitation into imperfection, which, paradoxically, opens the door to depth.

And the idea of beginning with the body (specifically the hands) as the site of reflection is deep. In so many mystical traditions, the hand is a symbol of both creation and communication, action and intimacy. To write about the hands is to begin where experience meets the world. Melissa Febos’ piece builds on that beautifully, challenging the cultural narrative that relegates the body, especially a non-conforming or “non-decorative” one, to a site of shame.

But here is what struck me most: this event, this very gathering, wasn’t merely an extension of the book, it was the book in action. It enacted the very transmutation it preaches. Lead into gold. Discomfort into connection. Isolation into shared meaning. It reminds me of the Jewish concept of “tikkun olam” — the idea that the world is broken into shards, and our job is to piece it back together, not necessarily through grand gestures, but through acts of presence, truth-telling, and attention. A gathering like this becomes an act of repair.

And here’s a thought to offer in return: if the journal is a conversation with the self that becomes a bridge to the world, what if we began to think of every intimate conversation as a kind of journaling aloud? Not performative dialogue, but real-time, co-written meaning-making. What would our relationships look like if we approached them not as rehearsals of identity, but as shared blank pages?

Thank you, Suleika, for always writing with ink, and above all with presence. This isn’t a simple book, it’s a way of being.

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5th grade, sitting in a new desk configuration our teacher, Miss Romersa had read about, where the desks were pushed together in groups of four to encourage "community." It was 1972. One of "In" girls, was in my group, and the first thing she said to me was, "Your fingers are way too long!" I hadn't thought about my fingers except that their length had allowed me to glide across the piano keys where others struggled. But suddenly, they were hideous extensions forever connected to my equally huge hands. I began to curl each finger in slightly from that day forth, and the Body Inspection began. My mother, my sweet, adoring mother noticed I was doing this and asked about it in the kindest of ways. I fell into her lap, all 5'4" of my stick body, sobbing, shoulders heaving, full body in a depth of despair and hopelessness, and she held me, pulled me so close to her and said, "That girl is ill informed, and lacks manners. It isn't her fault. She probably learned it from her parents. You are a beautiful, unique soul and I grew those fingers, those hands and the beautiful person that is you. Do not let anyone ever diminish who you are. They will try, as this girl did, and you hold your head up, unfurl your fingers and let your spirit, the one that is only yours, shine brighter than their petty comments." Shine on, all of us, shine on.

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