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Feb 4Liked by Suleika Jaouad, Holly Huitt, Carmen Radley

I’m a senior, about to hit the big 80, I spend way too much time alone, which brings on bouts of depression. Art and meditation are my solace. From the porch in my country home in Rhinebeck New York I meditate on the butterflies as they flutter . Thinner, then sheets of paper, yet those monarchs fly and make it to Mexico and South America. Butterflies became my theme for the year. I’ve had several falls, but I fall like a butterfly, I float like a piece of paper in the wind, and have managed not break any bones. I am light like a butterfly. I am strong like a butterfly.💖

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Feb 4Liked by Suleika Jaouad, Holly Huitt, Carmen Radley

Brava Beautiful Butterfly Suleika🦋👐🏾🦋

With tears in my eyes and compassion in my spirit , I smile because your journey has landed you at the Grammys with your soul mate. I’m in love with the song lyrics of Butterfly and will write on how it pulled at my heart strings. I had a boutique in Santa Monica named, “ Golden Butterfly”. I got my one and only tattoo of our custom made butterfly logo in Paris on my 50th birthday. I release butterflies on the angelversary of my daughter, Lyric’s flight to heaven which took off on August 14, 2018. Today I found a booklet Lyric made in elementary school called “ Butterfly”

Tonight I listened to your song, Butterfly, and felt God hug me and Lyric kiss her Mama.

I want it to win the Grammy and I’ll be looking for your beautiful face in the audience 🦋🎶🦋

Love,

Jennifer

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Feb 4Liked by Suleika Jaouad, Holly Huitt

A butterfly searches for home

But can you fly there on your own?

Let your wings spread far and wide

A butterfly finding home

A pack of gum and the golden sun

Vintage fashion and tales you’ve spun

I see you're driving 'round with your head held high

A butterfly finding home

Stay a while here with me

Catching rays and feeling free

Like when we were young and so in love

'Cause you know who you are

You're a butterfly

A path to wander from a dream, hm

More questions than answers reign supreme

I mean, I've never seen

Something so confusing and serene

It's a butterfly finding home

**Suleika, may your evening with Jon, be light as the wings of a butterfly, colorful, whisky, and enchanting.***

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Feb 4Liked by Holly Huitt, Carmen Radley

What a fantastic, creative prompt! So unusual, I can't wait to try it. As usual, I loved both the essays today. That scene in the airport in American Symphony is so, so moving. I always think, during the hard times, if we could only zoom out a little to see how the whole story fits -- how painful that moment was, and impossible to know then that you'd be returning two years later for a song that holds so much meaning and memory. I always notice this when I read over my old journals and whisper to myself, "zoom out", see the whole picture and how each moment fits together...

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Feb 4Liked by Holly Huitt

Thank you so much for this prompt. My lymphoma is back and treatment looms. I'm told all will be well and, in my head, I believe this to be true. Apparently, my heart is not so sure and is sending flutters at odd times, offering me an alternative issue to focus on.

This prompt -- especially Suleika's invitation to use Jon's lyrics -- offered me a way to explore my emotions in a different way. I used the first stanza and put my thoughts into a renga (essentially a haiku -- 5/7/5 -- followed by two seven syllable lines). Though this form is usually done by multiple poets in collaboration, I found it offered me a lovely frame for this prompt.

I couldn't find a way to bold in this comment box, but his words are in there.

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A heart aflutter

A butterfly in motion

All movement and light

Are we alone? Connected?

Does fluttering have meaning?

Questions spin around

A beginning or an end?

But then clarity

Both can be true—now, always

You need not choose either path

Just flutter and fly

Allow the moment to be

Gently, quietly

Heart and butterfly align

Together and on your own

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Feb 4·edited Feb 4Liked by Holly Huitt

Bilie Holliday: Strange Fruit and Gloomy Sunday

This weeks prompt-was to share lyrics. My thoughts brought me to Billie Holliday who I love profoundly. Many many times and over and over. The world can be pretty disheartening--but somehow the depths of Billie's interpretation although bringng me to tears also was and is a tower of strength.

it's Black History Month...the lyrics... so many times I listened over and over... remembering those that nursed and loved me.. the world was cruel.. Billie knew.. I searched her out on 125 Stree before....I love her candor and truth. .. "Black bodies swinging in the southern breeze

Strange fruit hanging from the poplar trees---"

"Little white flowers will never awaken you · Angels have no thought of ever returning you"

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I’m going to write this week’s exercise when my brain is a little more awake. But I wanted to mention the class I took at Michigan’s School of Music, Theater and Dance (or as we call it, SMTD). It matched up writing students and composing students - people like you and Jon. We collaborated to create songs, starting with single lines, then verses, then entire songs. I got to see how a composer chooses notes; they got to see how a writer chooses words. At the end of the semester, our class put on a concert, with performing arts students singing our songs. It was such a joy to hear what we had created come to life. Monica would have been a wonderful classmate.

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Feb 4Liked by Holly Huitt

I would like to share the lyrics of a song I wrote long ago. Over the years, it has gifted me many connections with people who are struggling through one thing or another. The title is Baptism of Fire (by Julie Snow, my maiden and songwriting name)

Baptism of fire I never knew what that meant

But now the flames are rising higher

I guess I haven’t seen anything yet

Because it’s coming down around me

And I am rising up

Like a phoenix from the ashes

Wings across the blue

The only way out is through

Forrest of fury, kindling of fear

See how dark the woods have grown

After all these years

And now they’re coming down around me

And I am rising up

Like a lily from the shadows

Glistening and perfumed

The only way out is through

All the detours taken never lead you home

What a maze you find yourself in and still alone

Oh you thought it would be easy

So the truth eluded you

The only way out is through

Baptism of fire all happening within

Illusions burn like tall grass

In a wild and reckless wind

And now they’re coming down around me

And I am rising up

Like a great bell resurrected

Ringing loud and true

The only way out is through

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Feb 4Liked by Holly Huitt

I really related to all that you wrote. I’m waiting for my radiation to begin and find myself somewhat frozen, unable to pray, unable to move or think Somehow seeing your creativity lifted me, gave me something to do, held the thoughts in a different way. Showed me a way to create. Thank you.

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Feb 4Liked by Holly Huitt

Two years into my multiple myeloma treatment, my husband and I started writing our own words to Hotel California by the Eagles. We called it Hotel Myeloma. The last lines we kept the same because myeloma is incurable but treatable. The lines are. “ you can check in but you can never check out”. We often start singing our words to the song as we are going to an appointment or waiting to see the doctor. I am 8 years post diagnosis and it still helps me! Thank you Monica and Ironman and Jarvis!

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Feb 4Liked by Holly Huitt, Carmen Radley

First time I heard “Butterfly”-spoke to my soul!

I have butterflies everywhere in my home. Symbolic of transformation and freedom to me. The lyrics:

A butterfly searches for home-the struggle

But can you fly there on your own?-you have the power

Let your wings spread far and wide-leave yourself alone for freedom and space to fly

A butterfly finding home-you know where you belong

A pack of gum and the golden sun- don’t need much when you find it

Vintage fashion and tales you’ve spun- this stuff is as real as it can get!

I see you're driving 'round with your head held high-finding grace!

A butterfly finding home

Stay a while here with me

Catching rays and feeling free

Like when we were young and so in love

'Cause you know who you are

You're a butterfly-the butterfly has worked so hard from a caterpillar to breaking free to its gloriousness that no one know how long it will last. But I’ve found you! I see you! I love you! I set you free! To all the beautiful butterflies in our community and our Queen bees: Suleika, Carmen, Holly!

A path to wander from a dream, hm

More questions than answers reign supreme

I mean, I've never seen

Something so confusing and serene

It's a butterfly finding home

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Feb 4Liked by Holly Huitt, Carmen Radley

I was so deeply moved by your essay and Monica’s. Looking forward to cheering on Jon and you tonight and trying Monica’s prompt later today. Hers reminds me a little of erasure poetry only moving in the opposite direction: building rather than excavating. Best of luck tonight! I’m remembering what your doctor said in American Symphony about not just surviving but living. Fly, Suleika! 🦋

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Dear Suleika, I believe this beloved community will be wrapping you in our love and care and joy as you celebrate being with Jon tonight. You’ve both already won the biggest prize. You have each other and your health is returning. Is there truly anything that could summon more gratitude? Bless you!

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Feb 4Liked by Holly Huitt, Carmen Radley

I am so very happy to know you will be going to the Grammys! Butterfly is my favorite song on the album and all of Jon's nominations should become wins...so genius! Billy Bob Bo...amazing concept! A song that has actually helped me throughout my life is 'What A Wonderful World," and of course I love Jon's version too. It helps me remember...especially when I've had an overdose of the news...it truly is a wonderful world. I'm going to try the exercise using those lyrics. Have so much fun!

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What a true celebration and joy—with light-full brilliant song! The photograph of you two in artistic communion is stunning. Thank you for opening up this freedom prayer and day with us. I feel connected, not alone. Love fills and overflows to many, friends near and far. Cause you know who you are…

A tapestry to soul supreme

I mean, I've never seen

Something so damn beautiful, oh, child

It's a butterfly flying home

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Feb 4Liked by Suleika Jaouad, Holly Huitt

A quiet morning within. BUTTERFLY taken flight after ALL these years struggling ALONE.

BUT (YET) how CAN i truly see YOU, truly be you, truly FLY your flight? ON bejeweled wings, on YOUR OWN …

Ever TAKE this present moment for YOURself, my Love. ever PLACE your awareness IN wonder, your breath in harmony with the moon & stars. smile with kindness at this WORLD and these people TODAY.

AN unveiling ~ borne from chrysalis on to the breezes of life …

BUTTERFLY, with beauty & grace,

FLYING, with gentle agency,

HOME, to my own sweet self.

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