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I wasn’t looking for a revelation at the farmers’ market. Just a slow wander, eyes skimming over peaches, eggplants, & fragrant basil. Then, I saw it—a tomato so dark it was nearly black, its skin taut, marked by a pale, star-like scar where the stem had been.

I stopped. Stared. Picked one up. I’ve known tomatoes my whole life—in kitchens where olive oil pooled in earthenware, where hands shaped dough on floured wood, where the scent of simmering pots carried stories older than the walls. But never this. Never a tomato so dark it seemed to hold the night within its skin.

The grower, a woman of Indian descent, smiled. “Black Cherry Tomatoes,” she said.

That was it. The rabbit hole opened.

It was a weight thing. The roundness of it. The way my fingers knew the feel of it before my brain caught up. And suddenly, I wasn’t in the market anymore. I was in my aunt’s house, leaning against the billiard table, watching her line up a shot. The lacquered balls, the deep polish, the way the light bent over their curves. The tomato sat in my palm, marked with the same quiet geometry—smooth, weighted, holding a history within its skin.

I bought a whole bag. Not because I needed them, but because I needed to understand them.

At home, I fell straight in. Black Cherry Tomatoes—heirlooms, passed down through generations, their darkness owed to anthocyanins, the same pigments that give blueberries their depth. The star at the top? A natural imprint, left by the calyx pressing into the skin as the fruit ripens.

That should have been enough. But now, I was thinking about billiard balls.

Early ones were carved from ivory, each tusk yielding only a few. Later, celluloid was introduced as a synthetic alternative—until they discovered that under just the right conditions, these balls could explode on impact. (Imagine lining up your perfect shot only for the table to stage a tiny mutiny.) The game itself? Pure physics. Angles, resistance, force—every shot a calculation, every motion dictated by an unseen formula.

And that’s when I saw it—the deeper connection. Not just shape. Not just markings. Movement.

A billiard ball, struck just so, follows a path determined by its surroundings. A tomato, though slower in its journey, is no different—shaped by wind in the vines, the weight of its own growth, the hand that plucks it & sends it rolling. Both are objects caught in stillness just before they shift again.

I imagined setting a Black Cherry Tomato on a billiard table, watching it sit for just a breath before it tipped & rolled, nudged by some invisible force. Like the billiard balls themselves, which, when knocked too hard, would drop from the table & disappear—into woven pockets, like macramé socks, stretched just enough to catch them; in other tables into openings where they’d roll down unseen channels, landing with a quiet finality. One moment in play, the next, gone. A different kind of rabbit hole, where things vanish, waiting to be retrieved.

I wanted to ask the grower more, but she was busy, hands moving swiftly from one customer to the next. The rhythm of trade pulled her forward, & I let the moment pass.

So, I left with my questions intact, my curiosity only half-fed.

But I’ll return next week, find her again. I know she had another name for them, but my mind was already headfirst down the hole, & all I can remember are the letters Y & U. Perhaps that was her name for them… perhaps I’m imagining something altogether. This time, I’ll wait for the pause, the moment between transactions when the weight of a question lingers just long enough to be answered. The other kind of rabbit hole—the in-person kind, unfolding in real time, through conversation, through the hands of those who grow the things we eat.

I so enjoyed this prompt, Suleika, & reading of Jon’s explorations, of how both your curiosities works. Starting with a tomato, & before you know it, you’re knee-deep in billiard ball manufacturing, exploding plastics, ancient cultivation, & the mathematics of motion. And maybe that’s the real beauty of it—not the answers, but the sheer thrill of not knowing where the next turn will take you.

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Gina Goth's avatar

Hello All. I love Rabbit Holes. And worm holes!. I love this "I used to feel a sense of shame around that, thinking it was a weakness—that I was easily distracted. But as the years pass and all my past interests, from design to music to dogs to writing, reemerge and cohere in my adult life, as I braid them together, I feel the urge to change that story, to tell my inner critic to pipe down—I’m not some distractible procrastinator. I’m curious, and the best and most interesting things happen when I follow my curiosity." Thank you for such a beautiful way to look. I went through a journey with your announcement of excitement and sadness to acceptance. I live in Pittsburgh so I thought maybe Phil. However with much discussions with my husband it is not possible with my health and caregiver of my mom. However if you decided to record any show and sell those recordings I am first in line for tickets!!

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